Archive for March, 2019

Joseph Matthew Kimutis 10/10/91 – 3/31/11

Eight years ago this morning, John, Sadie and I returned home from the hospital without our Joe. No sleep for any of us. We had to stop at my parent’s house, wake them from their sleep and tell them that Joe was gone. Horrific. We were home only a short time before they came. The [...]

My Joe, gone eight years.

Eight years ago today my son walked out the front door, smiling and laughing.  I don’t know why, but I turned around from where I was sitting to watch him.  My last words to him, “I love you, Jody.”  That was the last time I saw my boy alive. A part of my heart died [...]

Birthday thoughts.

It is my birthday. Today, I am 59. The start of my 60th year. This is a photo of me when I was a little girl. Even back then I loved the beach. I looked back at the blog I wrote seven years ago. I still work every day at staying in the moment. This [...]

Homeward bound.

Well, it is time to pack it up and head north. The last 17 days have been good for my body, mind and spirit. Now, my liver might be another story, but overall, it has been good. Today is the last day of my 59th year on the planet. That thought has had me thinking [...]

So long, Johnny.

Well, today is the day. Johnny has to go back to Pittsburgh. We had 10 fun days together. I love being with my Jack. We have a good time just about anywhere. Being here on this island together is very nice. Whether he was biking, running or enjoying a beer, it was great seeing him [...]

Happy Birthday, daddy.

  Daddy in his pond If my dad were still here, he would be turning 94 today.  It has been seven years since we gathered around his bed.  John sang Happy Birthday to him.  A tradition.  As John knelt next to the bed, holding my dad’s hand, I could not have loved either of them [...]

St. Joseph

Yesterday was the feast day of St. Joseph.  I pray to St. Joseph a lot.  St. Joseph was a humble and caring man.  A carpenter.  My own dad was a humble and caring man, and a carpenter. I named my son Joseph. Without hesitation, St. Joseph loved Jesus, unconditionally, even though Jesus was not his biological [...]

Writing a wedding ceremony.

It’s a rainy day here today. It is dark and dreary. It is a good day to stay inside and write a wedding ceremony. My candles are lit. Sage is burning. Music is playing softly. Lana Del Ray, Mariner’s Apartment Complex on a loop. I probably drive John crazy, although he hasn’t said anything. It [...]


Well, I have been here one week. It has been so nice to see my wonderful friends. I love that I have the type of friends that, when I don’t see them for a while, we pick up right where we were. That’s nice. John has been enjoying his time here. He is running and [...]

My next chapter.

Johnny was feeling under the weather, but seems to be back to his old self this morning. He is out on his bike, riding down the island. I am sitting on the lanai in my pajamas, sipping a cappuccino out of my happy mug. I have no idea what my blood pressure is but I’m [...]