During this time.

Today is about day 75 of time in captivity. More than 9 weeks. That is a semester of school. So, what have you been learning during this time?

I have decided to lean into this time. I’m not working, so there is nothing but time. Can you believe that? Nothing but time? Just sit and take a giant breath on that thought. Think about all of the things that you have said you would like to do in your home and personal life, ” If you only had time.”

The entire world has stopped. We are all being forced to stop. If I look back and think about it, in the months and years leading up to this life was moving faster and faster. It is now a giant time out. I saw a meme that said, “Your grandparents were asked to go to war. You are being asked to sit on the couch. Think about it carefully and act accordingly.” So true, and yet there are so many people unwilling to do just that.

I am trying to look at each day as a clean slate. There are days that I fill the slate with things to do and other days I am still and the slate is empty at the end of the day. Either way I want to focus on being happy and content in the now. In this day only. How often have we heard that this day only is the only one anyway?

My hope for my sixties was that I could fill my last third of my life with new experiences. I have barely left the house for the last two months since I turned sixty, but I would like to think that time was not lost on me.

I am listening to a lot of books. Joining Audible a few years ago was a smart idea. I don’t know why, but ever since Joe died I have not enjoyed reading physical books like I once did. Not that I think there is a connection between Joe and reading, I just think I lose my concentration a little more often, maybe? Well, I don’t know. I am currently listening to the book “Unorthodox”. SO interesting. I love learning about other customs and beliefs.

My pool is open and I spent the last two days floating and walking around by myself. I have said it before, I feel closest to God when I am in that bucket in my backyard.

I haven’t been writing as much as I usually do. My blogs have been few and far between. I think people don’t really need or want to hear what I have to say. For years writing the blog was a release for my feelings and emotions. If I didn’t write I would feel like exploding. Thankfully, I have calmed that down. Maybe my next blog will be about that.

I will fill my slate with painting. Since the quarantine I have painted seven pieces of furniture. Today I will start piece number 8. Painting is so peaceful and calming for me. When I was a little girl I would fill a bucket with water and paint the driveway wall. Yesterday I ordered six Annie Sloan sample pots of paint. Each one will cover a small piece of furniture.  Looks like my next few weeks are planned out for me. I must be getting a reputation because people have begun to contact me when they are throwing away old furniture. I love that! And, rarely can I say no. I do pray for the person who gave the piece to me when I paint. My way to pay them back. So, I can feel calm painting and get creative at the same time!

I know things are beginning to open back up, but please be careful with that, and for the love of God, wear a mask. My entire life I could not stand anything on my face. I wouldn’t even wear those plastic Halloween masks, but, now I wear a mask. Yes, I’m sweating and having anxiety behind it, but I am doing what is right.

So, that is all for today. Think about what it is you want to do while you are at home. Sit quietly and let the answer come to you. God speaks the most to us when we aren’t telling him our plans.



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  1. Cindy Says:

    I love reading your thoughts and feelings Sue! It’s so calming. You inspire me with your Peace. Thank you Dear.